BSS - Chapter 40
Chapter 40
Xu Wei didn't say anything.
She was pulled into Deng Chuan's embrace, surrounded by the refreshing scent of a young person. At her neck, Deng Chuan tentatively kissed her, a warm, wet, ticklish sensation spreading along the path.
It was as if she'd been made tipsy by a summer night's breeze. Xu Wei's whole body went soft. It wasn't until Deng Chuan had kissed her all the way from her shoulder to her ear that she seemed to snap out of it, turning her head and stopping Deng Chuan's lips with her fingers.
Their eyes met. Deng Chuan looked at her, the rims of her eyes red, like a little rabbit.
Xu Wei was completely speechless now. After a long moment, she managed to say with difficulty, "Deng Chuan."
She looked at Deng Chuan's eyes, which seemed on the verge of shedding tears, and felt like a truly wicked adult.
"I'm sorry..." she said softly. "I can't..."
Even Xu Wei herself didn't realize the reluctance and tenderness on her face as she spoke.
But Deng Chuan saw it clearly. As if bewitched by such a gentle expression, Deng Chuan gazed at Xu Wei's lowered eyelashes, gently cupped her face, and moved closer as if possessed. Finally, she pressed her lips to Xu Wei's, an incomparably soft and fragrant sensation, like falling into a whole spring's worth of blooming flowers.
Xu Wei's unfinished words were swallowed between their lips.
Forget it, she thought.
The kiss was very clumsy, with no technique whatsoever. Yet Xu Wei seemed unable to bear it, leaning back. She rested her hands on Deng Chuan's shoulders and felt Deng Chuan's hand come up to support the back of her head.
The position made Xu Wei feel a sense of being controlled. Deng Chuan was half a head taller than her, so Xu Wei had to tilt her head up slightly to receive Deng Chuan's haphazard kisses.
So young, she didn't even know how to breathe. Xu Wei gave her a light bite, their lips and teeth touching, and said softly, "Breathe."
Deng Chuan's throat bobbed, and her chest heaved noticeably.
Xu Wei couldn't help but let out a laugh.
The laugh dissipated some of the ambiguous atmosphere in the room. Xu Wei wanted to use the opportunity to pull away, but Deng Chuan held her fast. She learned quickly; her assault became more intense, yet the strength in her hands was gentle as she lightly held Xu Wei's waist.
When the kiss ended, Deng Chuan's fingertips toyed with a strand of Xu Wei's hair, her thumb wiping at Xu Wei's swollen lips.
Silence. No one spoke. After a long moment, Xu Wei finally parted her lips and sighed helplessly, "I really don't know what to do with you..."
She stroked Deng Chuan's eyebrows and eyes, being so frank for the first time. "I really don't know what I should do with you..."
Deng Chuan stared into her eyes. "You like me too. Right?"
"Liking isn't enough."
"It is enough."
"Deng Chuan..."
"Do you trust me?"
"..."
They were at a stalemate for a moment, Deng Chuan just staring fixedly into Xu Wei's eyes.
Xu Wei was defeated once again. She looked away and said nothing.
"Don't be afraid." Deng Chuan cupped her face and went to kiss her lips again. Inches away, she spoke against her lips, like a whisper from a dream, "I love you."
Xu Wei's sigh was smothered between their intertwined lips.
They kissed for a while longer. During a pause to catch their breath, Xu Wei released her lips and murmured, "What time is it? I'll take you home."
It was indeed getting late. Deng Chuan reluctantly let go of her face to pack her things. When she looked up again, Xu Wei was already dressed and ready, standing by the door waiting, looking all set to go.
She couldn't help but laugh. "Why are you in such a hurry to kick me out?"
"I'm not." Xu Wei turned her head and said nonchalantly, "Are you ready? Let's go if you are."
Deng Chuan slung her bag over her shoulder, quickly put on her shoes, and stood up to grab Xu Wei's hand. "Ready."
Xu Wei's lips curved up, but she didn't move, letting Deng Chuan hold her hand.
The two stood at the door waiting for the elevator. As Deng Chuan watched the numbers ascend, she said, "I can't come see you tomorrow. I have to go register for driving school."
"Mm," Xu Wei responded softly, then asked, "Are you going alone?"
"I'm going with Qingyu. Do you remember Pei Qingyu? She came to the school to find me once with Su Mian and we ran into you."
"Oh." Xu Wei thought carefully. "I think I remember."
Then, for some reason, she let out a soft laugh.
"What is it?" Deng Chuan was confused, and her laugh made her heart itch. She tried hard to recall. "Back then, did you know I liked you?"
Xu Wei said breezily, "I probably knew."
"How?" Deng Chuan said. "I hid it so well."
Xu Wei smiled. "Do you know what it's like to stand on the podium and look down at all of you?"
"What's it like?"
"I can see everything you're planning to do, clear as day."
"Ah..." Deng Chuan's mouth fell open, momentarily at a loss for words. "So, did you like me back then?"
For once, Xu Wei hesitated.
Deng Chuan shook her hand. "Teacher Xu?"
Xu Wei said calmly, "My feelings for you back then were the same as my feelings for Zhou Liu."
"I don't believe you."
Xu Wei didn't speak.
Deng Chuan pretended to sigh in disappointment.
In her peripheral vision, she saw Xu Wei turn her head to look at her.
A moment later, she heard her say softly, "I'm not sure if I liked you back then. But I can't deny that I was paying special attention to you."
"That's also why I've always felt guilty towards you. Deng Chuan, I don't know if what we're doing now is right. But I can't gamble your future on us. No matter what, you have to remember that your future will always be the most important thing to me, okay?"
Deng Chuan looked at her. There was so much in Xu Wei's eyes-cherishing, treasuring, conflict, and an even deeper choice. She couldn't fully understand it all yet, but she could intuitively feel that she was truly loved by Xu Wei.
This love was enough to make her believe in their future.
"Mm." Deng Chuan tightened her grip on their hands, which had unconsciously become intertwined, and felt Xu Wei gently squeeze back.
The elevator arrived with a "ding," and Deng Chuan led Xu Wei inside.
The elevator stopped again on the eighth floor, and a group of young people got on. The sound of their laughter immediately filled the small space.
They were all around twenty years old, boisterously joking around. The boy in the lead glanced at the two of them as he entered, then nonchalantly squeezed to the side.
As the elevator descended, Deng Chuan held Xu Wei's hand, slightly shielding her with her body.
Neither of them spoke. Deng Chuan gently rubbed Xu Wei's palm. Their hands were stuck together and didn't let go.
Suddenly, in a lull in the joking, one of the young men, emboldened by his friends, hit on Xu Wei. "Hey, you're really pretty. Can I get your WeChat?"
The elevator fell completely silent.
Under everyone's gaze, Xu Wei said nothing, only secretly hooking Deng Chuan's fingertip with her own.
"Sorry," Deng Chuan said, rejecting him. "She can't."
The young man's eyes widened. He exchanged glances with his friends and was about to say something else, but the elevator had just reached the parking garage on the first basement level. The doors opened, and Deng Chuan pulled Xu Wei out.
After they got in the car, neither of them mentioned what had just happened, as if it were just a trivial little incident. Not long after they started driving, Xu Wei suddenly seemed to remember something and said, "Practicing driving in this weather might be very sunny. Don't forget to put on sunscreen every morning before you leave."
She glanced at Deng Chuan's fair skin, then quickly looked away and focused on driving. "Got it?"
"Mhm."
It was late, and there weren't many cars on the road. The feeling of the car moving quietly along was very comforting. Since Pei Qingyu had just been mentioned, Xu Wei took the opportunity to ask about Su Mian. Deng Chuan said, "She finished her exams. She'll be back soon."
"Mm."
Without dawdling, Xu Wei drove Deng Chuan to the entrance of her apartment complex. She unlocked the car doors but saw that Deng Chuan hadn't moved from her seat.
It was somewhat dim inside the car. This kind of environment made Xu Wei feel very secure, and her voice softened unconsciously. "What's wrong?"
Deng Chuan unbuckled her seatbelt and leaned towards her. "I want a hug."
Xu Wei gave a helpless smile, unbuckled her own seatbelt, and reached out to embrace her.
The kid spoke next to her ear, her hot, moist breath tickling her, making Xu Wei shrink her neck instinctively. "Don't mess around..."
She tensed up as Deng Chuan's hand traced its way up her waist, counting her vertebrae one by one.
She nibbled on her ear, calling her name over and over. "Xu Wei, Xu Wei, Xu Wei... Xu Wei-"
Xu Wei pulled back a little, staring in the darkness at the source of the heat, and reached out to pinch her cheek. "What are you doing... Stop calling my name."
Deng Chuan stared intently into her eyes. In the dim light, her gaze flickered like candlelight. "I love you-"
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